Dawn. :D

2009-08-20T19:11:00.001+08:00

CHANGE BLOG LINK! PLEASE RELINK!
http://dawnlovessnoopy.tumblr.com/

2009-08-16T20:49:00.002+08:00

Changed back to public already. Don't ask me why I did that. I mysef don't even know what's the reason. But anyway, life has been hectic these few weeks. I just need a break, like seriously from everything. And I want everything to be back to the past for my family. Why are all these things happening?

2009-07-30T21:16:00.005+08:00

Haha. Uploaded photos taken with dearest when he came back to Singapore. :D Haha. I know its very late of me to upload but I am really busy. I still have to upload the pictures I taken with my class. Haha. Anyway, dearest went back for about 3 weeks. Really miss him lots. Life without him is so meaningless but luckily I got Zhiler, Doreen, Clique and Lydia for company. :D

Dearest, i know i have made you upset these few days. I am really very sorry about it. I will try my best to change back to who I used to be alright? You must concentrate on your studies in Australia okay? Because I am why you are there. :D Don't disappoint me ah! Haha. I will study hard in Singapore and we shall make it to university together. :D I will be waiting for you in Singapore. Love you lots! :D

2009-06-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

OMG! MY COUSIN REPRESENT SINGAPORE IN THE ASIAN YOUTH GAMES IN THE FIBA 33. SHE'S THE YOUNGEST IN THE TEAM & THE WHOLE FAMILY WAS LIKE SO SHOCKED BECAUSE WE THOUGHT SHE ONLY TOOK BASKETBALL AS HER HOBBY & DIDN'T KNOW HER BASKETBALL SKILL IS SO GOOD!

CLICK HERE TO GET HER PROFILE!
http://www.ayg2009.sg/page/Basketball/AthleteProfilesDetail/0,,12804~1654923,00.html

HAHA. & YOU KNOW WHAT, MY AUNT KNOW ABOUT THIS THING, SHE CALLED MY DAD TO ASK ABOUT THE MATCH.

MY AUNT: WHERE WILL THE FIRST MATCH BE HELD?
DAD: AT ANGLICAN HIGH SCHOOL, & SHE WILL BE COMPETING WITH CHINA.
MY AUNT: HUH? SHE GO CHINA JUST TO PLAY THE MATCH?
DAD: *LAUGHING*

THEN MY DAD STARTED TO MAKE FUN OF MY AUNT SAYING THAT MY COUSIN WILL GO INDIA ON THURSDAY TO COMPETE & GO BAHRAIN ON FRIDAY TO COMPETE.

2009-06-20T23:39:00.005+08:00

2009-06-20T22:16:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN ZHENGYANG!

Haha. Its Tan Zhengyang's birthday today. Gave him a surprise ytd with feini, zhiler, christine, xhiwei & jack & he was so touched till there was tears in his eyes! Haha. Hope you enjoy your day today.

Anyway, supposed to have CIP ytd and all of us were asked to wear casual smart & we ended up wearing as though we are office people. After that, our CIP was to help a YFC group to sell fans and pens and we decided not to help them as its quite weird to sell those things when we awere dressed like office people. So sorry to that YFC group. YFC group reminds me of LIMMINTAO & just to tell your he's coming back next friday! I am so so looking forward because I MISSED HIM SO MUCH! (:

Anyway, back to ytd. After which, we decided to watch movie at cathay and we watched ghost of girlfriend's past. Its a nice show & I am waiting LIMMINTAO to come back to pei me watch THE HANGOVER (: Haha. Anyway. After that headed down to bukit timah to play pool & they decided to go island creamery (p.s I don't really know the spelling) to eat ice cream. I was talking with LIMMINTAO on the phone while on the way there & that jack is really very blur. He asked me to ask LIMMINTAO to come and eat ice cream together & I was like huh? He's in Australia. Then he went like he's in australia?! Can you believe how blur he is? Then after that when we are going to reach that place, zhiler suddenly fell down!!! I am so so sorry that I didn't realise you fell down. So sorry my 10 year bf! ): Anyway, helped her to a seat because she couldn't walk properly. Helped her clean & rub her wound and that girl pull my hair! Okay, I know she's in pain but how can she do that right?!!! But anyway, shall not elaborate more on this incident because I think Zhiler will blog about it. For more details, go to her blog (: But anyway, CHIANGZHILER you better look carefully when you walk okay, this is not the first time already. Take care! (:
After that, all of us went home and changed and meet at zhiler's house downstairs and proceed to light up the candles. It was so fun la! Then we decided to ask feini to trick him come down by giving some stupid excuse and that TANZHENGYANG actually believe! I have got nothing to say. xD & when he come down & saw those candles, I saw his eyes watery one. Haha. I knew he's crying! xD & after that we clean up & went home (:

Today, went to bukit merah library to study alone, hoping that it will be productive & in the end it is. Okay, I complete my physics revision package & marked it & study the lecture notes. Yes, it seems that I didn't complete a lot of things but to me, its alot maybe because what I have studied today really went into my mind? But anyway, Before having lunch with my mum, I was studying at this bench whereby the girl beside me was wearing the pioneer initiate tee & I was so shocked to see a pioneer there. Okay, your must be thinking wearing pioneer initiate tee doesn't mean she's a pioneer. & then she took her notes out & its pioneer notes & she was doing the physics revision package. So I can confirm she's a pioneer. Anyway, My laptop ran out of battery when I finished checking the answers for the physics revision package. I was sitting beside a socket but I couldn't charge my laptop due to 2 selfish china lady who practically charging their laptop for whole of 3 hours. They are not doing their school work or what, they are watching ppstream. Like WTH! Anyway, after my lunch with my mum, I went back to the library to find a place beside a socket to charge my laptop so that I can check my maths revision package answer. Haha. & I saw a very familiar figure & face & guess who is it? LYDIATANG! Haha. Then I went to say hi to her. Haha. She was so shocked to see me. I mean like of course, because I don't live near there but because my mum work near there ma. Then I studied with her & she left first because she got church. She will be going there to study next week which is my plan for next week too. So we decided to meet at there to study together. (: But my kelian zhiler cannot join me because her leg injured. Nvm, you stay at home and study and rest well okay? Take care! (:

2009-06-18T13:17:00.002+08:00

Okay. Let's start off with yesterday's class bbq.
It was fun buying and preparing the food with the class peeps (:
Meet zy they all to buy food together and went zy's house to prepare the food.
OMG! Armani is so cute la! But duo duo is cuter (: Or should i say cuttest (:
Haha. Anyway, went zhiler's house to bathe after preparing and headed down to nich's house.
Played some games and started helping out in the bbq-ing.
Had fun and after that all of them were so crazy.
Suddenly say want go christine's house to ton so we went along.
Zhiler came my house to bathe and went to meet jack they all at teck whye market to eat.
After eating, walked to christine's house with xhiwei, jack & zy.
I tell you, jack is so crazy over ghosts.
He keep saying about ghosts la!
After that reach christine's house and started watching bu neng shuo de mi mi.
Her younger brother is mad, he talk as though I knew him for so long.
Anyway, the rest started to play mahjiong while me, zhiler, zy & christine sit down to watch movie.
Played some board games after that & feini went to sleep.
Poor feini, sleep for 1 hour for 2 days only.
I can see she's like so shag nor.
Anyway, played poker with jack they all & jack's seriously mad.
I don't know how to explain it here but he's mad.
Played till about 5 plus & I couldn't tahan anymore so called feini to wake up & we went home.
Zy they all board a cab home and shun bian alight me.
Haha. I was totally like a zombie walking on the streets.
Went home and bathe and went to sleep straightaway.
Woke up at about 12 because Mintao called & here I am chatting with him & zhiler.
Okay, photos will be uploaded soon for the past few day's activities.
Not many photos actually but I am just lazy to upload.
Just continue studying for physics.
1 more week left & I really hope holiday can just extend.
Just by a week or so is better than nothing.
Whatever. I shall stop using the computer so often.

2009-06-10T21:56:00.001+08:00

You know what? My mum just asked me this morning whether I am free during the 8 - 10 August because she want to go Genting then there is nothing on those days so I tell her anything and she went to ask her friend book. Then just now come online, weekeat say 4/6'08 class outing on the 9 Aug ): Meaning I can't be able to attend. So sad! Sometimes its just so unlucky.

2009-06-10T18:12:00.003+08:00

Haha. There are too many things happening these few days.

Friday

Meet up with Jess & went bugis with her because she wanted to help her cousin buy something. We walked around bugis street & bugis junction for don't know how many thousands of times but still enjoyed my day with her. So long since we chatted so much & get to know so many things from her. & of course let her know some of the shocking things I found out recently. We must have more of these outings uh? (:

Saturday

Meet up with Zhiler & went Plaza Sing to have our sushi buffet. We were so bloated after the meal so decided to go Plaza Sing to walk around and decided to walk to Haji Lane. Haha. We reach suntec and decided to go in to rest & enjoy their air-con because we were practically sweating. After which, we walked to haji lane & found out that there isn't any much things there. & went bugis after that to walk around. She stayover at my house that day & so many funny things happen. xD

Sunday

The whole day out with my parents & my uncle & my aunt. Family day! (:

Monday

Sorry girls, couldn't make it to the outing because I had something on.

Went to my dad's company to help out during the day and went to zhiler's house in the evening. Wanted to study but you know it is always unsuccessful with zhiler around. Went to bake cookies & surf the net with her (:

Tuesday

Zhengyang, Xhiwei & Zhiler came my house to study for the whole day. Okay, that was the initial idea. But we ended up in christine's house playing mahjiong & watching show. Went there to eat instant noodle too. So sorry christine! Da rao le! After that came back to study for awhile & they went back after dinner.

I was listening to songs when doing my work just now. It shuffle to 一了百了. & my tears just drop. I finally understood how you felt that time. I admit I was cruel at that time & I didn't know why I did that. Luckily, Jing jing was there & wake me up. Thanks for forgiving me & allowing me to come back to your side. Love you (:

2009-06-04T21:00:00.004+08:00

Had Pioneer Explorer today. Enjoyed myself with the less privilege children, zhengyang, nich and weizhang. (: Haha. Tired yet a meaningful day (:

I am utterly disappointed in you. You betrayed my trust. Do you actually know what's the meaning of grateful? You just pissed me off. Its just something random that has been going through in my mind for days. I seriously hope that school holiday will never end.

2009-06-01T14:42:00.003+08:00

Okay. I went to cut my hair on friday. Yes, it looks like helmet again, according to CHIANG ZHILER & TAN HUIYING! ): Stupid them! Haha. But nvm, as long as Mintao finds it nice can already. XD

Anyway, I finished my EOM but I guess its not a very good piece of work. How can you expect me to do a good EOM without a GPP? That's like so dumb but anyway its only draft one. That's what I told ler ler too.

Went to find ler ler for dinner and went to her house after that. We were supposed to study for econs but end up I was helping her to do her EOM. See, how can you find such a good friend? xD Anyway, had fun with her yesterday, expected. She always brings about laughter to me. xD

Just a lesson learnt recently: You can never judge a book by its cover.

2009-05-27T17:07:00.003+08:00

Seriously, PW sucks like hell! I hate GPP. My group's idea has been rejected like the second time. Its just the idea only. We have redo the whole thing for 3 times. I seriously do not know how to pass up my EOM draft 1 next week when our group have to redo our GPP again. ):

Okay, on a happier note, something funny happen in class today. I cannot mention it here but those who were there will understand what I am talking about (:

And Friday's GP midyear. Haiz! I guess I am going to fail it. I am just not good at language. ):

And Mintao's coming back in a month's time! (: But.... I am only able to accompany for about 1 week because I am having my MYE when he's in Singapore ):

I really miss you a lot.
Its really hard for us now but I believe we will be able to get over it right?
Don't worry too much about me alright? I will be okay.
But its you I am worried about. You must take care over there.
5 more years and everything will be back to normal.
Thanks for hearing my rants everyday and your understanding.
You gave me the motivation to work hard!
I love you! (:

2009-05-11T21:25:00.002+08:00

Okay, I finally have the time to blog again. Life has been passing so quickly that I didn't realise that I only left with about 2 to 3 weeks till the first mid year paper ): I am so not prepared for it. But what to do? That's jc life. Anyway, I am having fun with my classmates even though time flies. Went to bukit timah hill with my classmates for some NE stuff and went playing pool after that. Didn't join them for too long because I was supposed to go out with my parents but end up landing at home, sleeping. xD Okay, then yesterday zhengyang, eugene, thaiyeng and nicholas came my house to do the GPP. Today, Zhiler, Feini and Jack came my house to do homework. Both me and Zhiler complete manage to complete everything except econs. Too lazy to do. Feini complete everything except physics and econs. And of course, jack didn't progress as much as we do but he managed to complete all his chemistry homework. Can you believe it? All thanks to me, Zhiler and feini uh? (: After that, played cards with them awhile before they went to have their dinner. After that, Zhiler called me and I knew its something not good. True enough, she wanted to come to my house with feini to watch a show on channel 8. After that, they went home. Let me tell you this, it was fun li-siaoing jack and feini xD

P.S. Both me and feini is so crazy over the korean liu xing hua yuan. OMFG! (:

2009-05-03T15:49:00.002+08:00

Okay, I finally gave the time to blog. Actually, this week is not very busy but I am very lazy to switch on my computer so didn't blog. Sorry about it. Anyway, time flies and May has reached which means June holidays is coming! Okay, it also implies that MYE is also reaching ): Anyway, Let's just don't care about studies for the time being. xD Mintao has went back to Australia and hope he's doing fine over there. Especially when now the H1N1 disease is there. Faster go have your vaccination asap okay! Everyone is worried about you in Singapore especially me! ): Take care dear. And Went over to Jurong point to find my snoopy strap on friday with my mum but didn't manage to find it and instead guess who I saw on that day? YING ZHEN! Okay, maybe your have forgotten about her but she is the my siaocharbo when I was working at westmall. She's now working at Jurong point. Anyway, have a chat and she couldn't recognise me at first. I have to go like " I am the girl working with you in west mall ", she then remember. She's still very funny and still cares alot about her hair still. Yesterday, feini and zhiler came over to do the physics quiz together. I was supposed to meet zhiler at 11.30 am but guess what time I woke up? 11.35 am. I was very shocked and quickly called her to ask her wait for me. SORRY! I don't mean it okay. Then after that came my house to do the physics quiz and that liang fei ni suddenly have the urge to do homework so they stayed at my house to do homework till about 6 plus and we went to eat dinner and came back to do homework till about 9 plus then they went home. My saturday was spent with them, laughing at all the funny things Zhiler is doing. Haha. As usual. Okay, I shall go and do my chem tys if I got the mood. I finish my GP essay anyway! (:

Ler ler, don't emo le okay? its weird to see you emo you know. You are always the happy-go-lucky girl. And please, if you are upset over anything must tell me okay? I everything also tell you but you need me to go ask you you then tell me. 10 years of friendship where can like that one? Right? Take care girl. Just wanna let you know that no matter what, I am just a phone call away or message away alright? (: Love you! (:

2009-04-25T11:55:00.013+08:00

Me, Yiwen and Ah gong cum Ah meng!
Oh my! Sorry "Twin Brother", I don't mean to take this picture at that lighting.

Mr Melvin Kong!

The VP who told me " I don't think I know you" ):

Jun Jie, My photographer for about 10 mins of yesterday. Thanks!

Mr David Leong! LC for 4 years! (:

This shows how light Xhiwei is. xD

The 3 Crazy Guys.

Again?! xD

I don't know why they are having this pose. xD

BiQin (:

Those gays! xD

XiangLan (:

Yiwen, Melvin, Kenny & Irfan (:

Daffy (: She's so cute right? (:

MeiYuan (: The fake SAINTS (:

XiaoYun (:

XuEn (:

YanNgee (:

Maureen, that maid xD (I guess she's going to kill me)

Diane(:

Pamela(: She and her crazy crush on a AJ guy.

Haha. I don't know how to name the four guys.

Irfan, Kenny, Melvin & Nazili. (: Melvin look so mature!

Clique with the Top Student! (:

The guys with the top Student! (:

Top Student! (:

What the hell is Nicholas and Weilun doing? (:

They are supposed to do a Jumpshot (:

The guys & eugene (:

The guys (:

The two gays I know from the first day of Sec 1 (:

4/6 '08

Xhiwei, Eugene & Hongyee (:

Weilun's unglam picture (:

Dearest Juniors (:

Clique & Mr Melvin Puah (:

Ms Lum! (:

Student of the Year!

Mintao (:

Clique + QiaoDan (:

The guys (:

The guys! Mark! ( Student of the year!)

Dave (:

2009-04-25T10:09:00.006+08:00

CCKSS Speech Day Yesterday! Oh my! Its was fun to meet up with old classmates and snapping pictures together. I am still uploading the pictures to my com. Will upload on my blog when it has finished uploading (:
Went home after school yesterday to bathe and change for Speech Day. Everybody was looking so smart and I thought Kok Yiwen wouldn't come but was quite shocked to see her. It has been like so long since I last saw her. Anyway, everyone started to be very high and starting screaming and shouting at the hall. I guess 4/6 was the noisiest class yesterday. It was great to see most of the classmates and schoolmates once again. (Even though most of them are in pj now) And I realise something this guy name Adam, who is in my school for 4 years but yet I didn't know got this person until yesterday. I am so sorry and I still went up to ask him if he was once a CCKSIAN. Like the right? If he wasn't, why will he be there yesterday? xD Anyway, meet up with all the teachers and after that the class went to westmall to have a class dinner. Oh my! I really miss secondary school life so much even though JC life is good too. Hope that most of us will be able to make it to the Alumni Dinner on the 6th of June. And we are to snap even more pictures! (:
Simply love 4/6'08 (:

2009-04-15T19:51:00.002+08:00

Haha. I really wanted to post all the pictures I have taken for the past few months but I am too lazy to do that. (: I promise I will upload it when I don't feel lazy xD Anyway, School was fun and exciting these few days with both ZhiLer and Candice around. And of course 09S19! 09S19 is fun with those people like FeiNi, Christine, TowRong, Zheng Yang, Nicholas, Weekeat & Xhiwei etc. (: Especially that TowRong, never fail to entertain me and Zhiler with his results and his expression (: Suddenly, I just want to say I love 09S19 alot! (: Even though we are still not so bonded as a whole class but I believe part of the class is bonded together (: Even though its quite stress to be in this class, I still love your loads! (: And MINTAO IS BACK!
Really enjoyed myself when he's back but sadly he's going back soon, which is next saturday ): Sorry to my dearest ZhiLer that I couldn't accompany you these 2 saturdays and of she's not angry because being my best friend for 10 years, she understands and she knows that I am spending more time with her than with Mintao! (Oh my! Mintao's going to kill me when he saw this) Anyway, ZhiLer never fail to entertain me and Candice during school right Candice? (: And DOREEN NEO MIN QI! Your school is starting like real soon and when are you free to meet me and ZhiLer for lunch after our lesson? Faster make an appointment with us okay? We are waiting! Okay, I shall go edit my PI again.(:

2009-04-11T09:41:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I am just wondering if this is my blog. I couldn't seem to blog whatever I want because whatever I blog here seem to bring a lot of troubles to the people around me. Those who want to know what my blog is talking about because your don't understand can just come to me and clarify. Do not go around spreading when you are not getting the full picture. I want to type out all the names and stuff the people I am refering to but its not convienent.

P.S. Anyway, my mum's family treated me very good and its my dad's family that I am unhappy with.

2009-04-09T22:21:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to my dearest grandpa so it would be in chinese. (:

公公，一年就这样过去了。明天就是你离开我们正正一年。时间过得很快，那些画面就仿佛像上个月发生的事情。这一年来，我从这件事学到很多东西。我想不只是我吧，全家人也一样。我更加珍惜和家人相处的时间和我周围的人。公公，其实到现在我还是很想念你但是我不知道如何把这份想念表达出来。唯一能够表达我对你的失念是回到马来西亚的事后。就好像上个星期的时候，我有好多东西想要告诉你。但是当我跪在你的墓碑前，我就掉眼泪了也无法把我原本想要说的东西告诉你。虽然，我在你的所有孙子方面算是跟你没有很多相处的时间。但是，这几年跟你住，带给我好多回忆。记得你有一次泡咖啡给我喝，我想那是我从喝过最香又好喝的咖啡。公公，关于你的一切，我会一直放在我的心。虽然你已经离我们而去，但是那些所有的回忆不回因此而消失。我只想告诉你我真的很想念你，真的。

2009-04-06T18:38:00.003+08:00

Oh my, there are so much things for me to blog about but little time to spend. I shall update more with stuffs and pictures when I am free! (: Got to go to rush all those overdue tutorials and study for that stupid physics test tomorrow. Oh! No no! Is my FAVOURITE physics test (:

I finally found the place where I belonged to after those years (:

2009-04-02T23:07:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I am now very pissed off. You think you are calling the shots in this world and that everyone has to listen to whatever you say. I never hated you so much till now. I know I shouldn't be meddling in this thing but I just felt unfair for her. I was wondering what does friendship mean to you? You appear to have a lot of friends but I believe none of them are your true friends. Its difficult to find a new friend in Jc that you are extremely good with so its best to make a lot of friends in Jc just like her. Seriously, I admire her personality. I just hope things will be better for her.

Okay, now back to life. Oh my, Life has been very busy these few weeks ever since holiday ended. Not going to school tomorrow as I will be going back to Malaysia. I am supposed to wake up at 3 am tomorrow but here am I still blogging at 11 plus. I have got hell lots of homework this weekend and I doubt I could finish it especially GP essay. I am not going to regret stepping into JC again but instead going to work hard. (: Jia you!

2009-03-19T23:08:00.001+08:00

Try to stand in my shoes and think, you will understand why I made that decision. I didn't want to but I have no choice. Don't assume that everyone is like you.

2009-03-13T22:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO ME! (:
OMG! I am like 17 now! So old? ): But anyway, really enjoyed myself alot.
Thanks for those who sent me the greetings! I know the list may be long but please bear with me, I am really thankful to those who wished me. Its the thought that counts not the present. (:
They are:(not according to any order)
LIMMINTAO(:
CHIANGZHILER(GUGU BIRD)
CHINJUAN
CANDICE
JESSICA
ZHUONA
ELAINE
XINYI
YIWEN
HUIYING
BELICIA
LYDIA
FEINI
ZHENGYANG
BOONTAT
KUNYUN
XHIWEI
NICHOLAS
WEEKEAT
WEILUN
MENGKIAT
WEIJIE
JASPER
SHENGKIANG
XIJUN
XIANGLAN
BIQIN
MEIYUAN
JACK
DOREEN
ANGELA
DEXTER
MABBEL

Sorry, If i miss out your names. My whole class actually wished me because they sang birthday song to me. Haha. Thanks alot to these people, they really made my day wonderful (: Mum & Dad brought to Sakura to eat (: Mintao sang birthday songs in both english and chinese to me through skype. xD His singing is awful. But anyway, I enjoyed myself even though I had 3 tests today. ): Once again, THANK YOU! (:

2009-03-01T21:58:00.002+08:00

Finally, I am blogging. (: I know my blog is dead but the thought of having to type out what had happened really irks me. But anyway, jc life is quite slack for me and zhiler. xD Oh ya, did I mention me and Zhiler are in the same class? Okay, we are in case your don't know. Zhiler is slacker than me. Don't believe? Ask her yourself. (: Daily routine of life nowadays is webcam with Mintao (: He's even slacker over at Australia because his school only going to start tomorrow. He can still go play soccer and basketball over that. Of course he has a lot of friends now but I forgotten what's his best friend name. xD Anyway, Misses him a lot and he's coming back on the 10th of April! (: I got so many places to go with him but he will only be back for 2 weeks ): That's very sad but its better than nothing. The worst thing is that he is not able to celebrate my birthday with me ): But anyway, its alright (: Yah, and I am going home with jessica like everyday after school. And she will spam me with all her nonsense. Xinyi, I can't believe you can stand her. xD I think jess is going to kill me soon. xD And my dearest zhuona is at shanghai now enjoying her life while her boyfriend nicholas and me is mugging like mad. (Okay, actually the both of us are slacking like mad too) Anyway, cafe seems to be a favourite hangout place for me and zhiler on thursday afternoon because she will always accompany me to wait for jessica. Anyway, life's alright now but it will be even better if mintao dearest didn't went to australia to study ): Can you believe that we can only see each other through webcam? ):

2009-02-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

Okay, I know I have been blogging for like don't know how long. Yes, I ended my work at suntec and spend so many crazy time with my dearest jing jing at that place. And I started school and knew my class. Yes, Mintao dearest went to Australia and I am back from Bangkok. Sent Mintao dearest off before catching the plane to Bangkok. I must say I was simply crying like hell. Of course, I couldn't bear to let him go even though everyone is like telling me he will be back in 3 month's time. But just try to think that you can't spend valentines with your boyfriend, can't spend your birthday and his birthday together and for the whole of 3 months you can only see him through webcam and all those stuff. But I believe the both of us will definitely get over this period together right? (: I know he wanted to cry that day but he control his tears really well. You wouldn't want to imagine that me and hy were crying like mad and he was seperated from us by a piece of glass waving goodbye to everyone. I remember that my dad lent me his shoulder and his shirt is like completely wet. I could't deny that till now I am still missing him and wouldn't want to face reality because I am crying when typing this post. Yes, luckily I went to bangkok because shopping over there sort of allow me to forget those unhappiness for that moment.

Dearest, Just want to tell you, do not worry about me, I will be alright (: I know you will be back in 3 month's time and you will definitely not let me down right? I will wait for you to come back (:

2009-01-18T22:52:00.002+08:00

Its quite upset to see people writing in their blogs the gifts their parents will be giving them because of their good results. I am not blaming my parents or anything because I know they want to reward me but they couldn't. I was about to cry when my dad told me "Sorry dear, we want to reward you but we couldn't". I cried because I am so touched by my dad's words. My mum told me that my results is the greatest console to her. She can finally be proud of something in the whole family because as compared to my uncles and aunties, my parent's education level and income is the lowest which made the rest look down on them sometimes. I once told my mum that my only motivation to study is to get a job with good salary so that they can get out of those life. I understand why my mum wanted me to go to jc because she wanted me to be nearer to my goals. I don't blame her. I remembered those times when I stayed up to study and she accompanies me. I remembered how worried the both of them were when I stayed in school to study till 9 pm. Those messages my dad sent to encourage me to be strong. I just wanna say thank you to the both of them. I will continue to work hard so that they will never be looked down again. (:

2009-01-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

Those lies were the only memories you left for me.

2009-01-04T17:44:00.003+08:00

Our love is so strong but yet brittle.

Just woke up and came back from class chalet.
Oh my, I didn't sleep for the whole night can you imagine? Its like my first time okay.
The 6 of us, Laopa, Kenny, Xhiwei, Elaine, Zhuona and me didn't sleep for the whole night.
And guess what's the thing that keep me awake for the whole night?
That is.... MAHJIONG! XD
I suddenly so addicted to mahjiong. (: Haha. Okay. Overall, Class chalet is fun nah.
Thanks people for making it so fun ah. (:

Nana, Sorry for making you drop your tears too. I was actually very shocked when I saw you like this but I can't seem to say any consoling words. Sorry ah. But really thanks for the hug and etc. I know you wanted me to feel better and you really manage to. (:

Elaine, yiwen and huiying, thanks to your too. Your words really enlighten me somehow. Thank you! (:

2009-01-02T12:03:00.001+08:00

I caught the wrong signs again.
Why does it happen to me always?

2008-12-31T12:03:00.002+08:00

The last day of 2008 and the last post of 2008.

I felt that 2008 had passed very fast and I learnt a lot of things this year. I started my first job this year and studying hard for Os this year. So many things had happened this year for me. I don't know if its a good news that 2008 is ending. It has been a year of mixed feelings. Mostly sadness because of grandpa's death and also many things. However, I have seen my sides of human this year too. I shall not elaborate if not this post will be a very long one. I just wanna enjoy the last day of 2008 with my clique and let 2008 end in a happy way. And of course allow 2009 to start with a happy way too! (:

2008-12-10T13:01:00.002+08:00

Just realise this one thing, my company take a long time to give me my pay. Like my first week pay, my manager just dropped the cheque a few days ago. And can you see, this is the 4th week I working for this company. Okay, nvm. Let's see how much will I get for my first week ba. (:

2008-12-09T20:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday marks the end of my 3 weeks in westmall. Seriously, I felt sad when I am packing my stuff, leaving that place. If I could choose where to work in the future, I will definitely come back to westmall. Those 01 to 05 treated me very good. Sometimes, I have lunch for extra 15 mins or break for extra 15 mins, they just pretend they didn't see anything. And when they saw me standing there alone, they will just pass by and chat with you. They appear to be fierce but actually they were nice people. Of course, I am going to miss that siaochabor Ying Zhen. I will definitely miss those times where we had our lunch and break together, gossiping about the other promoters, the time where we were so bored until we shopped around shop & save, looking at those delicious frozen food, slacking at both my counter and her counter and teasing about my commission etc. She's a nice girl and we manage to click so well even on the first day we knew each other. Of course there are still people I will never forget, the sushi auntie, the calbee auntie, the good auntie, the shortie etc. Hope that suntec will be like westmall. (:

2008-11-27T21:42:00.002+08:00

Haha. Went out with the 2 siaochabors ytd. Doreen and me managed to trick Zhiler waste 1 MRT trip. Okay, we didn't do it on purpose. We really have no idea to go at first. After which, Doreen suggested to go to velocity to have ice cream buffet and when we reached there, she suddenly told Zhiler and me that she feel like eating something full. So, in the end we went to eat Fish & Co. and Zhiler told us that the New York Fish & Chips taste very salty when she ate it the other time. Doreen & me didnt trust Zhiler's taste so the BOTH of us ordered that dish and it end up very salty. I can hear Zhiler saying, " See! I told your!" Okay okay, for this time, your taste is finally the same as us. XD Anyway, after which we went to vivocity to walk around and went starbucks to chat while waiting for my dad to fetch us. Took quite a number of photos but I am lazy to post of them so I will just post one. Okay, overall was a fun time with them. The 2 of them really can do stupid stuff to make me laugh! Haha. And we are going to Doreen's house on the 10th Dec to bake things and also to laugh at Zhiler when she fall! XD And of course East Coast Park during Jan to laugh at Zhiler again. Outing with them reminds me of the past and of course I heard something disgusting from Doreen. I am glad that I am not into any contact with that person anymore. I cant believe that you are still the same after so many years.

Anyway, Realise that I have changed my blogskin? This is because Zhiler said that I have not been changing my skin. She think that I am so free like her, always at home 'hao chi lan zuo'! XD And Mintao called me ytd from genting and he said he bought me a shirt. I asked him what if I don't like, he said he will give his dog, DUO DUO, to bite. He's trying to say that I am worst than his that Dog, or maybe pig. Herh! And he's coming back tmr night. Going to ask him go westmall find me on saturday to pass me the shirt! (:

2008-11-25T15:52:00.002+08:00

Its finally my off day after 1 week of work. Nevertheless, I did not really have a chance to rest today as I have to go to my company for a meeting for some promotions in december. Haha. But I was given $20 just for that meeting. Cool right? Anyway, my work is quite boring and sometimes I hope I am given more tasks to do. All I have to do was to stand at the counter there and give samples for people to eat. As usual, I will get to see the ugly side of Singaporeans. Either they will take a lot of the samples or they did even look at you when you asked them. However, who ask the pay of my work to be considered as good? $50 per day + commission. And I only worked 6 hrs 45 mins a day. The pay is my only motivation for work now. HAHA. Anyway, did I mention that elaine and xinyi came down to find me on saturday and they are super auntie la! And xinyi bought a lot of clothes when she haven't started working! You this bad girl! Accompany them awhile and took mrt to find my parents. Okay. Thats all, I shall go rest and luckily I have another off day tmr but I am going out with Doreen and Zhiler! (:
Anyway, did I mention that mintao will be going to genting tonight and will only be back on friday night? ): Luckily I have my work to accompany me. (:

2008-11-19T11:20:00.002+08:00

Clique chalet ended ytd. It was a fun one especially the last night where we were playing cheat till late in the night. However, the unhappy time was the argument with the family beside us. Okay, not going to talk about the unhappy one. Night biking, Bowling, Watching shows, Bbq, Playing cards and mahjong etc. Those were the times I will never forget. It was a fun and unforgetable trip even though we have to squeeze when we sleep (:

2008-11-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

Two more papers and O Levels is over! Okay, I don't seem to be very excited about it maybe because I am starting to slack now? XD Haha. I am more excited over my job as a m&n's promoter. (: Starting work on the 20th Nov and ending only on the 24th Dec. For these weeks, I can't enjoy my weekends as I will be working. My off days are every tues and wed. ): But nevertheless, I am still looking forward to it and of course looking forward to the Kbox trip and Chalet! (: I tell myself I am going to miss the clique. ): I know all of us will never be in the same school due to the different goals in our lives but at least I have those memories. Thanks ah! (: Anyway, I am going to Bangkok next year during Feb! (:

P.S. Please know where's your limit. My patience for you is running out. If you are guilty, you will definitely feel something in your heart after you have read this. And if you are kind enough, please try to understand how would the innocent party be feeling. Please do not disappoint me like how you always do. I believe its not just me, there's another person who are even more affected by those disappointment you gave.

2008-11-02T18:54:00.002+08:00

Yes, its you once again. Seriously, I got nothing to say anymore. I think the only thing I want to say to you is that "Please wake up and stop being so childish!"

Okay, please pardon me for being so random (:

2008-10-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

Graduation Ceremony today and of course last day of school (sort of). I know I will miss everything in this school, of course the teachers, that clique of gfs and bfs and of course class 4/6. However, like what mabel said, "people come and go in our lives, cherish, cherish what you have now, be thankful of habing wonderful classmates and friends which are hard to find in the future". What she said was right, at least all of us can bring along those memories with us. I wouldn't forget those times I had in class 4/6. Those outings we had like class chalet, bbq and the visit to Ms Wong. Of course, I wouldn't that clique of friends. I do cherish the friendship we had for going 2 to 3 years even at times, we still quarrel and stuff. But the good times were so much more than those quarrels and it will eventually cover them up. I will never ever forget those memories. (:

2008-09-18T19:17:00.002+08:00

Got back most of my results. The 2 subjects that I am happy with are chemistry and physics. Yes, I saw eyes opening very big. PHYSICS?!! YES! Its physics. I have already left the c5 band and promoted to b3. (: Yes Yes, I know b3 is not something to be proud of when my class have so many distinction but at least it paid off my hard work. Suddenly, my interest for Physics increases. (: And I scored an A1 for chemistry. Actually most of my subjects have improved as compared to mid year. But Its still not quite good. I am upset but not because of my results but because of something which related to the results. Not going to say here, but some of them know. As what they say, I am not going to give up even though my both maths didnt do so well as expected. I knew your must be thinking that of course your results will drop nah! Until now still doing blogshop. But I just want to say, I believe I am able to juggle these 2 things. I will not neglect my study and of course score better for o level. Yes, I know actions speak louder than words. Next year January, I guess I will know if I really did work hard anot. Yes, this time round I may only at most score 2 distinction and confirm will be kick out of the top ten in my class. But I am not going to give up. (:

To Zhuona, Yiwen, Elaine, Xinyi, Huiying, Jessica.

Nana, you must not give up alright? (: I know you will always say that you don't want to study already because you have put in effort but results don't show. But rmb what I say, results don't show overnight. Your physics have already prove this right? Continue to work hard. Set your targets and tell yourself you can do it. Have confidence in yourself but not over confidence alright? (: I know you can do it! Its the last lap now, never give up at this point of time. Clear your doubts for all subjects now with all the teachers before you regret. I just want to say, do not give up (:

Yiwen, I finally understand why do you say you don't like upper secondary. This is because your results has been very good during lower secondary and suddenly come up to sec 3, your results dropped. I finally understand how you felt at that time as this is what I am feeling now. Its like you are actually one of the top but suddenly just drop. But I just want to say, no matter if you are top anot, this doesn't matter anymore. You are not competing with the others but instead, you are competing with yourself. Just tell yourself you are going to score better results in o level as compared to your prelim. Do not ever compare yourself with others as this will only make you more miserable. You are a bright girl. You too, don't give up so easily alright? But you must learn how to relax as humans are just like rubber bands. You should know what I mean. Jia you!

Elaine, I know you appear to be alright even though you did not do very well but actually deep down in your heart, you are feeling terrible. Don't worry girl, I am sure you can do well as long as you clarify your doubts with the teachers. Do not be afraid to ask them even if it is the easiest question as this fear may harm you if you don't ask. I believe you will definitely be able to go to the course you want. Do not be discourage by the cut-off point because if you do, you have actually lost the battle. Have more confidence in yourself. (:

Xinyi, even though I do not know how did you fare for this prelim but I just want to tell you that you must work very hard as I believe you can do well for all subjects like how you do well in chinese and also in one of the tests for physics. Continue to work hard and you will be able to get into the course your brother in. Jiayou! (:

Huiying, you uh, must concentrate for this one month already alright? (: Keep everything off your mind especially those gossips. I know you love to gossip but please spend those time to study. You do not have much time left already uh, just want to say, you have done well in chemistry once and I believe you can do as well in o level too. Do not give up in your studies especially maths and chemistry (: Take care girl.

Jessica, Whenever I think of you, I will think of a maths. I know you don't like a maths but since you cna do so well for e maths, I'm sure you can do well in a maths. You are capable of producing good results because your results have always so good for lower secondary. And I am sure you can do as well for upper secondary. You must study hard for a maths, physics and chemistry. Don't ever let me hear you saying that you never study that subject uh! (: Jia you! (:

2008-09-17T18:39:00.002+08:00

Just saw the graduation video posted by WeeKeat. I admit I wanted to cry after viewing the video. All the memories were just streaming in and 1 year plus just passed like that. I have to say this class gaves me a lot of memories like Ms Vanessa's Birthday, Racial Harmony Day, Sec 3 Camp, Visiting Ms Wong etc. However, everything would never be so successful without WeeKeat. WeeKeat, Thanks loads! I guess without you, our class wouldn't bond so well. XiangLan and company played a part too. I guess I wouldn't forget this class for the rest of my life. Thanks for giving me those beautiful memories. (: Love ya loads! (:

2008-09-03T14:18:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I just feel like throwing my phone downstairs. Its like I can't hear people talking when they call me and you know what, the image is just opposite. I don't know how to explain but Zhuona and Elaine saw it. This is what people say in chinese, "Zhong kan bu zhong yong". Nevertheless, i'll still change to a samsung phone this october because samsung's design is nicer. I can see Mintao at there scolding me. I'm sorry. ):

Anyway, this holiday doesn't seem like holiday but I'm not going to complain because at least it has allow me to do some revision for the prelim after sept holidays. But I haven studied physics and I can see Mr Tan's disappointed face. I'll really try my best to study hard for paper 1 as I know my paper 2 is already gone case. However, I just wanna say I'm not good at physics. ):

As time approaching to that day, I'm starting to miss you more. I've been telling the others its a test for us but how well can we actually fare in this test? I don't dare to say anything. Yes, this is a better future for you but somehow I just can't seem to describe the feeling I'm feeling now. Its like I wish to know what will happen in the future so that maybe I can stop you from going if after you go, everything will change. If you are meant to be mine, you will always be. Thats fate.

2008-08-27T15:26:00.002+08:00

Yes, for the last 2 days have been studying like mad because its prelims. But as usual, for physics and combined humanities, it is going to be a gone case.

Have physics and chemistry paper today. Seriously, its very hard. When I see the questions for physics, I knew a C5 once again. ):

Anyway, did I mention about elaine showing the blog of a girl whose boyfriend died in brunei due to an army training? I guess I didn't. At that point of time show showed me, I was chatting with Mintao on the phone and guess what I suddenly cry out and he was like saying I'm crying as though I'm the girlfriend. But once you read the blog you will cry. Maybe because you feel that the world is unfair. Furthermore, elaine still show me of another girl's blog whose best friend pass away in an accident. Seriously, what's wrong with this world? I begin to understand the word cherish but unfortunately recently, something unhappy happened again. I do not want to say what had happened but I'm so tired of this thing that have happening over and over again. I can just say, please know what my limits are.

2008-07-28T18:29:00.002+08:00

Do not ask me why, i just suddenly have the urge to blog. (: Anyway, recently got back my result slip for the mid year exam. I guess this is the worst results I'm having ever since I came up to upper secondary. I don't know what's stopping me from being hardworking suddenly as I have just reopen my blogshop recently. Can you believe it? O levels is just less than 3 months away and here I'm reopening my blogshop and spending almost an hour using the computer. Furthermore, Its Chem SPA tomorrow. Maybe its really time for me to stop fooling around as I know if I continue this way, I am going to regret and cry my lungs out on the day I collect my results. Anyway, just came back from Malaysia. (again?!, i knew your going to say this. XD) But anyway, this time around is because its the 100th day my grandpa has passed away. Time really flies and of course tears still roll down everyone's cheeks but the pain is not as hurting as the past. Maybe time is really the best medicine for everyone. However, this time round to Malaysia is not a very sad journey, a much happier one. I finally understand how important kinship is and of course there's lots of photo taken but I'm lazy. XD I love going to Malaysia due to the exchange rate. XD Can you see a difference when you eat a bowl of kuay tiao soup in Malaysia and Singapore where one is RM $2.20 and the other is S$2.20? XD Thats why when I'm there only for 3 days, i think i have added on thousand of grams of fats? XD

Anyway, did i mention that Mintao might be going to overseas to study? ): But i hope thats a good chance for him. (:

2008-06-10T18:12:00.002+08:00

Huiying asks me to blog.

Just came back from malaysia over the weekend for the 49 days thing. Took bus on friday night and home on sunday morning. Just 1 day in malaysia but i felt that day is good. Or should I say there's good and bad. Good thing is had loads of fun with my uncles, aunts and cousins. Bad thing is, we came to my grandpa's house to pray and all my 4 aunts were crying. My cousins quickly ask me to go out from the house as the 3 of us knew that if we stay there longer, we will soon be crying with them. And one of my this aunt told us that we must face reality that my grandpa will never be back. We will never be able to be like in the past, chatting with him and seeing him when we missed him. We can now look at the photos of him when we missed him. What she said is right, we should really cherish things around us. Maybe when things really happen to you, you will then learn to cherish. Maybe when you had regretted something before, you will then learn to cherish. I was wondering if my grandpa had forgotten all of us already? I hope not. I want him to remember that he had loads of children and grandchildren loving and missing him. I'm not going to say if time could return, I'm just going to say I'll try my best to cherish everyone around me. My friends, family.... Yes, maybe after this year, me and girlfriends will proceed to different paths but for the next 6 months, cherish the time we have so that we will not regret in the future. I'm looking forward to 28/7 when all the family members will be going back malaysia. I'm sure it would be a nice trip although there will be tears but they would be simply tears of misses and not tears of regret anymore.

Grandpa, I miss and love you (:

2008-05-08T17:52:00.002+08:00

Its the 19th day since my ah gong left me. yes, i'm always very happy ever since i'm in school but when i was alone, i thought of him again. i thought of what had happened ever since we knew his death. i thought every single thing that had happened in malaysia and the last time i saw him. i missed him badly. really. i had so much to tell him, but i just cant seem to be able to do so for now.

i remembered that typical sunday where i woke up seeing my dad sitting next to me, telling me that we are going to malaysia that evening. i thought he was just kidding and i asked him why. he told me that ah gong had passed away that morning and mum and aunt came in with their eyes red. then i realised its the fact. at first, i stared at blank space, with my mind blank not knowing how to face the reality. then, i hid beneath my blanket and cry like nobody business. yes, i knew ahgong's body has not been well, but i cant believe he's just gone like that. i cant believe i didnt see him for the last time and talk to him for the last time. then the trip in to malaysia was the saddening one. it was quiet and i sort of chatted with my cousins. only the 3 of us, didnt went back to malaysia to see him during the qing ming festival because of our studies. i bloody hate o level at that moment. i hate myself for having o level this year. i hate myself for being so selfish thinking studies is the most important now. ah gong will have plenty of time for me to talk to him. however, its not the true. why did god take him away at this moment? why? we reached the funeral there about 1 plus 2 at midnight. we went near to the coffin and there was my grandpa lying at there smiling. he passed away peacefully but no one could controlled their tears. we all cried but silently. i didnt expect that the last time i would be seeing him would be actually at this type of atmosphere. the next few days were ah gong's relatives and friends paying him the last respect. there was this little girl who is my ah gong's god daughter. she was only about 12 years old. she only knew about ah gong's death when she saw ah gong's picture. me and my 2 cousins and my uncle was kneeling down beside the casket. she was the first person who cried out loud which made the 4 of us couldn't controlled our tears and just cried too. she being only 12 years old and only god-daughter of my ah gong, had spent even more time with him than me, the granddaughter of ah gong. i hate myself for neglecting ah gong. during the last day, when they close the coffin, every one cried. i knew that would be the last time i see ah gong in person anymore. after which, we accompany ah gong for the last journey and every single one of us cried.

even though after i left malaysia and came back to singapore, everything to me is still like a dream. i walked past the route ah gong had walked. i walked inside my ah gong's room and remembering the position he will always sit. remembering that, he was still looking at newspaper like as usual. when it came to the first 7th night, i was at my uncle's house sleeping. during the night, i could sense someone holding on to me and i got the feeling that my ah gong came back to see me. but i closed my eyes, maybe partly also because i'm scared. but at least he came back. i know that i should put away all these sad feelings and studied hard, but sometimes when i was studying, i would just push them away because i kept feeling that it was them who caused me not able to see my ah gong. but still, i believe ah gong will never want me to be like this. ah gong, i still wanna say i love and miss you loads.